All I know for sure is you are an integral part of my life & I donot want to lose you but having said that, if you ever feel you want to get out of this relationship or at any time that this is not worth it, pls dont hesitate to tell me, just dont pull the plug off like that.
02/07/2012
We just need to have more faith is US & give each other the space n time required i guess...what say? what's your feel?
I don’t mean to over analyse...but do you see any merit in discussing what happened and why? Did we get too carried away or start expecting too much from each other? Probably justified too but the very nature of our relationship does not support it. I just don’t want either of us to feel so miserable & helpless again!
I don’t know why we broke away...but I do feel it wasn’t just that one instance but a lot of things building up! Was it lack of priority for each other in our life (not blaming) coz you were too busy with your house or me with my social commitments? Leading us to analyse what our relationship was, feeling insecure, frustrated & bitter probably...urging us to take control of our emotions instead of feeling like a doormat? Not to undermine ever existing guilt pangs which keep coming more strongly with every passing day, making me go mad in my head n causing withdrawal symptoms?
I feel coming few months are going to be very difficult...I have already told you I’m trying to conceive & I’m sure world will too, soon, if not already... We both must be aware what toll our relationship will take post that! It’s easier said than done. From mood swings & increased guilt trips to lack of time and prioritisation! I just thought we should discuss this once coz I won’t be able to go through a break up with you...I have realised that for sure.
I don’t know why we broke away...but I do feel it wasn’t just that one instance but a lot of things building up! Was it lack of priority for each other in our life (not blaming) coz you were too busy with your house or me with my social commitments? Leading us to analyse what our relationship was, feeling insecure, frustrated & bitter probably...urging us to take control of our emotions instead of feeling like a doormat? Not to undermine ever existing guilt pangs which keep coming more strongly with every passing day, making me go mad in my head n causing withdrawal symptoms?
I feel coming few months are going to be very difficult...I have already told you I’m trying to conceive & I’m sure world will too, soon, if not already... We both must be aware what toll our relationship will take post that! It’s easier said than done. From mood swings & increased guilt trips to lack of time and prioritisation! I just thought we should discuss this once coz I won’t be able to go through a break up with you...I have realised that for sure.
02/06/2012
You truly realize what something means to you when it is taken away!
Had so much to say...explain...complain...and now that I sat to pen down my thoughts...feeling all blank n nervous Anyways...i don’t know why you saying last few months...coz I seriously don’t think I did anything to hurt you but guess it must have happened somehow for you to feel so bad that you put an end to this...that day I agree i did not do right n deserve this treatment though did not think ever that it wld be so extreme! Believe it or not, i too really wanted to see your house...but anyways i don’t think it’s right to give these explanations as it doesn’t serve any purpose...so...But respect yr decision, whatever it is...even though i still haven’t digested it completely...still think about msgng you every morning...and keep thinking about you all the time...probably more...learning: never take people you love for granted as they can hurt you the most ;)
You know a few things have changed in my life...my black watch has become my fav. accessory, checking facebook n twitter to see what you are up-to has become my fav habit n thinking about the time we spent together has become my fav. memory. Anyway, I don’t think I can forget about you so easily and move on...so guess will be visiting this blog more often. Just to write...generally...about me, what’s happening in my life...aiwanyee. I know you don’t lke keeping in touch...but i do...so I’ll keep writing n you can choose to not read/completely ignore it. That’s not decision...
With you...always
You know a few things have changed in my life...my black watch has become my fav. accessory, checking facebook n twitter to see what you are up-to has become my fav habit n thinking about the time we spent together has become my fav. memory. Anyway, I don’t think I can forget about you so easily and move on...so guess will be visiting this blog more often. Just to write...generally...about me, what’s happening in my life...aiwanyee. I know you don’t lke keeping in touch...but i do...so I’ll keep writing n you can choose to not read/completely ignore it. That’s not decision...
With you...always
01/31/2012
You have hurt me and i dont know why. As far as I remember, i have always been nice to u. you ignored me and clearly avoided me for the last couple of months. The only thing i wanted was to show you my house and you avoided it. i have only good memories and do not want bitterness between us. But i think things would go only downhill frm here.
But i have not loved anyone as much as i have loved you.
Your best friend calls you and tells you he/she's really sick? How do you show you care?
Why are you doing this to us? I never thought you wld cut me off from yr life like this without even saying goodbye...
Your best friend calls you and tells you he/she's really sick? How do you show you care?
I try to not pick up the phone n call you...its very difficult...not to think about you...meet you...
